Day 1 – January 1, 2015

To really start this new year off right, I need to take a look back at this past year–no, the past, several years.  They have been filled with difficult, hard, stressful times, literally one stacked on top of another.

This past year my focus was primarily on my father.  It’s very stressful having an elderly parent to care for.  His mental and physical deterioration, injuries, illnesses, hospitalizations, and eventual move to a nursing home over the past few years has definitely taken its toll.

In 2013, not only did he suffer from major, congestive heart failure, I too was saddled with my own breast cancer diagnosis and treatment.  To say the past five to six years have been tough is an understatement.

I really thought 2014 would bring significant change for me physically, mentally and spiritually. While there has been some change–I’ve kept living and trying to move forward–it has still been more of the same.  No, I can say without a doubt, I fully regressed into the same, old, bad habits.

I am now the heaviest I have ever been.  I haven’t really changed or even placed focus on bettering the various aspects of my life.  I feel this whole time I’ve only been in survival mode.  Maybe that had to be enough with everything I’d been going through.  However, this is a brand new day of a brand new year.

Now is my time to focus and do the hard work.  Reinvention is in order.

I recently ordered an Inner Guide day planner for 2015 to help me keep my focus.  I started back on my custom, food plan designed by the trainer I started working with in early 2014.  I’m going to get back to working out and meditating every day.  I’ll be creating a new vision board with sections for each aspect of my life I need to work on–physical, mental, spiritual, finances, home life, work life, relationships, etc.  This is where I start.

Keep living and moving forward, ever changing and expanding.  No more excuses–Just do it!