I’m having a harder time keeping all my balls in the air than I let on.  Sometimes it feels like everyone and everything is moving at a normal pace all around me yet I’m living in slow motion.  Can I make it through all this?   

My finances have taken a sharp nose-dive into oblivion.  Normal, daily routines seem to have no purpose and feel burdensome.  Sure the chemo has it’s effect, but this has so much more to do with my present mental state.  I’m really struggling to find the level of focus neccessary to prepare for surgery.  In the end, hopefully it will all be good.  It’s the going through that hurts.  Baby steps, baby steps.  Face the fear!