Trudging

So, slowly over the course of the day I’ve stopped crying.  I’m trudging with heavy foot and brow.  How literary of me.  I had to seek out further inspirational quotes, like the ones I’ve already added to my sidebar aren’t enough.  Anyway, added more, which I think helped a little to bring me back to an acceptance-type state of mind.  I don’t know.  If I didn’t have these crappy, emotional days, and express them here, the good days wouldn’t seem to count as much.  None of us can be strong all the time, and who really wants to be.  Sometimes things just suck and its hard, so hard.  I’m not out of the woods and all the inspirational quotes in the world don’t seem to help the process move any faster.  Sometimes things just suck!  

But, hopefully, after the smoke clears, I’ll get up again.

Tears

My bad days have lasted longer this time.  So long.  Maybe they gave me a double dose this time knowing it’d be my last.  Out of work for three days.  I think my firm is ready for me to take a flying leap.  Today is not a good day.  Their recentment shows!

I’m having such a hard time and I can’t stop crying.  I just can’t stop.  I’m supposed to pull it together and be strong.  Inspiring, right? 

No, this all sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!